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That Piiggy


I am just of the extrovert ones who is always happy go lucky,a girl who had many setbacks in the past relationships,o_0 all along she was very enthusiastic towards her guess bags. She hated 14th of febuary yearly as she envy her surrounding friends as they are in the mid of enjoying each others companionship with thier love ones but not for her as she felt very solitude towards her life.Praying hard everyday to search for her new love. She is willing to be there for all of her friends when they are down and let them confine their sorrows towards her.(^0^).


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I need you
I need you here
I need you now
I need security somehow
I need you
Like you would not believe
You're the only thing I want
Cause you're everything I need

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Saturday, June 30, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Love hurts .
Thinking of u
Is hard to mend a broken heart.
I wish you could hold my hand and walk with me on the beautiful beach.

I just want to be with you. If I could hold your hand for the rest of my life, I would never be scared again.I want to hold you tight & I want to tell you every second how much you mean to me, cause no one has ever meant more.Just let me make you smile..

when all my thoughts revolve around him & he's the one you feel the happiest with,there's just something about him you don't see in other guys & when you're not with him .. the only place you want to be is in his arms . that's when you know its real.

Sometimes the hardest thing to let of is something you never really had.What could've happened, didn't -that's just the way the cookies crumbled.This is my good-bye to you.I'll never forget the way you made me smile.

It's time to move on with my life.I've got to stop reading the same page and continue turning the pages.The memories are still locked in my mind,but they're what's stopping me from living my life.

theres always gonna be that one thing you wish for but never get,that one mistake you can never take back and most of all that one memory you would do anything for just to have it again.

It's just so hard loving someone from a distance. Because no matter how far you reach, no matter how many tears you cry, miles you walk, & tantrums you throw, they won't be physically near you. And it's so hard to grasp that, but it's after the frustrations pass, you realize that you would rather hold their heart from miles away than sit at home wrapped in the arms of one you know you'll never love.

There are some things in life that catch your eye,then there are those that capture your heart. pursue those.

I love you. don't you see? don't you understand?you're the love of my life. I can't leave you.but you're constantly leaving me! you walk away when you want, you come back when you want!you stand by everyone, but you leave me!so I'm asking you, if you don't see a future for us,if you're not in this, please- just end it because I can't,I'm in it. put me out of my misery.

When you look at me,it's like you're secretly trying to tell me not to give up.

I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you..How good you look when you smile. How much I love your laugh.I day-dream about you off and on, replaying pieces of our conversation;laughing at funny things that you said or did..I've memorized your face and the way that you look at me..I catch myself smiling again at what I imagine..I wonder what will happen the next time we are together and even though neither of us know what the future holds,I know one thing for sure; you're the best thing that ever happened to me.

Believe me; I've always loved you.And even when you loved someone else,I kept quiet because I knew that you deserved so much better than me.

Waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought;useless and disappointing.

I just smile & pretend, you're not everything I could love forever.

You already had my heart.All you needed to do was say hello.

you are the tenant of my heart:often behind in the rent, but impossible to evict.

And after a while you learn that you don't need anyone else in order to survive.No one is ever going to always be there,no matter what they sayor what they promise you.You just gotta suck it up, accept it& keep on keepin' on.
I don't know why.Maybe it's because you're mad,maybe it's because you're afraid,maybe it's because you're also a little confused,maybe it's because you want to act cool;but whatever the reason,you're breaking my heart.
there are many lessons in life that only time can teach you. like how much you love someone; it's nearly impossible to know that until you spend your days without them. and there are those lessons that you can only learn through the beating of your heart and through feeling such strong emotions that you can barely breathe. then finally, the essence of time and the power of your heart crossing paths, and the only knowledge you're left with is the realization that time is the one thing that keeps you from letting go. no, it's never the embracing or the kisses, not the laughter or the tears, only time.
I might appeared strong but in my heart i am crying,i am gona let you go cos i want you to be happy.I hope you will find the one that you really love.You will be captured in my memory and it be will be erase.For all those happy moment that we shared i am happy enough,at least there is memories.Just promise me you will take good care of urself and never skip meals.I do hope the promise you made is true and tat is december you will go back thailand with me,i wun pinned a high hope.I wont ask you out anymore so that you wont feel stress,i hope you will treat the gal well.
CAN ANYONE FEEL THE PAIN ???



My World My Life

2:36 am




Thursday, June 28, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥


This is how far our love is,cant get any closer.

I wish you could hug me tightly like how this couple does.

Treasure ur love one when u meet them.



Tis is a poster so dont get the wrong meaning of it.

99straws with notes.

Mac lover.

See how engross when hellven was looking at my photo albums
The most awful taste of sparkling water.
From me to him.
The 1.60 meal at HONGKONG CAFE.
ICE CREAM GANG.
Look at how patient he was.THANKS
EVERYONE is helping me to count the HEARTS.THANKS GUYS.
The most ex breakfast tat i ever had.3dollar per plate.EEW

12 MORE hours den i can get to meet up with him ler,i wish everything could be fine and i hope he appreciate everything tat i have done for him.I LOVE YOU




My World My Life

12:27 pm






My Complicate Life ♥

Finally the big stones in my heart have been unloaded,now i get a clearer pictures of how people look at me.At least i know who are really there for me.Why is it so hard for him to give me a sms everyday?Not even a single one,even if i sent him a sms it will take 45 mins for him to reply my sms.I donnoe if i shld be sad or happy.
Think positively=There will be a better one out there.
Think negatively=There wouldnt be the same feeling and i cant bear to let him go,even if he treat me very bad but i do love him alot.
And i have completed the hearts but it isnt 9999 but 1314 cos there isnt much time for me to do it and he might not appreciate it so 1314 will be a good one.
Thank you for those who are alway standing by me.
Behind every smile sadness is hidden within.=)

-I HOPE I WILL HAVE A HAPPy ENDING WITH HIM-



My World My Life

1:50 am




Tuesday, June 26, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Some random pics taken at sentosa
Twist!!

On 25thjune all the way from my house i went down to buy dinner for wilson when he is working,i didnt expect anything in return.But i am damn pissed when he sent me a sms,"Thanks for buying me the dinner,i didnt expect u to buy for me but.u really give me a surprise haha.take care",i am stunned.I feel very dissapointed to received tat sms but well at least there is a sms from him.
Like what andy say dont expect 100% when u gave 100%.
I called him one of the day last week and he told me one thing tat made me very sad,"i think you treat me too good,and u have 34 ex,now i know why your relationship cant last. The another gal have waited for me for 8 months,i think i should do something back for her.I think you should not treat me so good becos i cant repay you back everything that you have done for me.
I cried after i talked to him on the phone,i cant control my tears.But PEOPLE tends to think that i cried is becos i want to gain pityness from them but i can tell you guys I AM NOT.
You guys dun noe how i am feeling,maybe only andy,jeremy and hellven noe how i am feeling.
Whenever you guys see me laughing happily from outside doesnt mean that i am happy,my heart is bleeding actually.I am pretending to be happy,but when i cant take i will cry it out.
As for those BITCHING ME OUT THERE,take a look at the mirror of urself.If you bitch me bitch in front of me,dont act plastic in front of me.I really despise this kind of people.
I have had enough of stress with my relationship already,why are you guys adding on to my stress?
Why so sudden that everyone is bitching me right now.Say i drama,by all means.If you stand in my shoes you guys will feel the pain that i am feeling.
How much do you guys know about me?
SAY IT OUT LOUD,
Do you guys know my fucking background?
Do you guys know how i have been thru all this year?
Do you guys know how hurt when she really treat someone nice and the person backstabbed her?
BITCH BY ALL MEANS IF YOU GUY THINK THAT I AM VERY FAKE.
Look at urself,you are no good either.
Friends dont treat fren in this way.
I really appreciate CARROT for toking to me just now,though we r not that close but you know me well.
Andy,jeremy,kenneth and lester.Thanks.
Hellven thanks to you too.
Hopefully friday will be a successful one for me to patch things up with him.

This is a phrase tat a fren told me....
One may have the most beautiful out skin, but internal is rotton.still did not make a differEnt of having a rotton out skin.



My World My Life

10:34 am




Thursday, June 21, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

It have been 2 day that you didnt even bother to sms me,are you giving up on me?
My heart is calling for you,did you hear it?
I am stuck in the air,dunnoe wat kind of hint you are giving me.
If this is the path that you choose,please at least let me do one last thing for you.
I am folding 9999 hearts for you,hope that whenever you feel down it will make you think of me.
I will be there for you no matter what happen,i dont care bout those freaking status.
What i wish to hear from you is the 3 words,i will be satisfy already.
I want you to know that everything i do for you is from the bottom of my heart.
People may scold me stupid but this is the last thing that i wish to do for him.
Thanks for all the happy moment,even though it is short but it will be crave inside my heart.
Before you leave me i hope to call you for the last time BABY.
Please remember to treat the gal well,i will not stop loving you.
TAKE CARE



My World My Life

9:39 am




Tuesday, June 19, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥


surprise for wilson

Anyway..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JEREMY DIVA,MAY ALL UR KINKY WISH COME TRUE!=)
shuhui and lester.
Beautiful scenery of kallang .MeMORIES ON 20 JUNE
Candle light dinner
Yummy!!
Our dinner



Loves!!
He look drunk.
Last kiss.goodbye my love
To him..
I LOVE YOU BABY


From him
Ice cream gang.
Shuhui and hellven
In train
On bed..hahax..





He look like dragon.
I love POOH.
Dirty fellow
Ooops,


The flower is from hellven,thanks.




So girl
arghhh..
hELLVEN IS THE BIG FLIES
Hellven act young
Hello





Do i look like mother?
Construction worker..
The witch
Big burger




Fake mac.

Hellven so cute
I love bear
Pinky gal



Doggie
We are animal lover
Hellven on the horse
Shuhui on the horse



Cool hur.
Ali shan de gu niang





He look damn hungry
Yum yum.
Delifrance ice cream





Ice cream with hellven ..sad
My tatoo
Meiqi and shuhui



sentosa with lionel
I LOVE YOU
From me to wilson


I thought things would turn out to be better,but it seems to be worst.

All the way from my house i bought duck drumstick rice and herbal tea for him cos i know he haven eat his lunch,wrote a 4 page long of letter and laminate our neoprint for him.

I bring him to kallang there to have our dinner at cosy bay cos i think the place is very romantic and i want him to feel pampered.
I am shocked he told me one news,"I might be with other gal,do you mind to be mistress?"

..My heart stopped beating from that moment.

I cant believe wat i have heard,guess wat i replied?
"I dont mind as long as you spend time with me,cos i cant leave without you"

Will any gal be so generous to share their love one?

Do i deserve all this?Am i not good enough for you?

You told me it was because you got feelings for her cos she have waited for you for 8 months,you two have been thru quite alot.
Than have you spare a thought about me?..
I wanted to give up but you say you feel very happy when i am by ur side.
I am very depress because of you,you know that?Can you feel it?
I dont mind to sacrifice anything as long as you were here with me,i really dont mind.

Will you still choose me at the end of the day?

Did i do the wrong decision?
I dont blame you..



My World My Life

10:52 am