Today when i was working halfway,my phone rang.

My mother was crying over the phone,

she said my grandma died.

I was shocked,1st time in my life someone so dear to me left me.

I hope it was a dream,but it was not.

Grandma i love you,why did you leave me behind?Why don't you wait for me to go back at the end of this year?Why?Wake up and tell me.

Do you bear to leave me behind?Why can't you hang on and see me for the last time?

It breaks my heart to hear the news.

I can't possibly get a air ticket to fly back now cos my father don't allowed me to,

why am i always in this kind of situation?

I am sorry ah yai it's been 2 years that i didn't go back and visit you,

when i noe u admitted into the hospital i was damn scare.

When mummy told me you need to get injection everyday,it pinch my heart.

I know you suffered,you even told mummy that you will hang on till i come back at the end of the year.

Why are you leaving so suddenly?Life is unpredictable.

Didn't you tell mummy that the one that you wish to see was me,den why are you leaving me behind?If you were leaving why don't you bring me along at least i can take care of you.

I fucking hate my life now.It's been 2 years since i last tasted the food that you cook,i still could remember the way you cook for me and said"This meal is specially cooked for you".Whenever i go back to thailand.

Ah yai(in thai language of grandma)chan kit teu(Imissu).



For those who want tag bad comments about me,GO AHEAD.

Cos i got no time to even bothered about it.

Thanks to Xavier ,kennethLim,daniel and lionel who are always there for me,i owe you one.

Thanks to Jeremy and andyLim for everything,i appreciated it.Though you guys don't want to be my friend but you guys are the best.



To darling baby:

I love you,though i know we won't really last long i still holds on to it and treasure every minutes,at least you fork out your time and accompany me.It is enough.Thanks.

4/9/07.I will arrange something that is sweet and fun for our next coming date.Hope u like it.