Things started on sept 22nd when i was walking at Bugis,
i saw this cute tall guy working in one of the stall and my heart is pumping like mad and i can feel my flood are flowing like waterfall.
So i decided to ask yongan help me pass him a little notes,
thought he wouldn't msg me but guess what..
The next day which is sept 23rd at 12pm 1 msg received and it is from him.
I am delighted.I smile all the way when i was taking mrt to Bugis to shop.
But...he is attached.
I couldn't care much at that time,cos i have FALLEN IN LOVE WITH HIM.
The feeling is like when i am with my ex Elmo.
He is a gentleman,caring and of cos cute.
He said he wasn't stable with his gf that why i didn't care much.
Almost everyday i will cook and bring it to his work place for him to eat.
I am in dilemma,
i don't know if what i was doing is right or wrong but what i know was my past relationship was because of 3rd parties that why my ex left me,i really know how the girl will feel.
She scolded me when she saw me at his house,
i was shocked but i kept quiet cos it hurts to see your own guy fall in love with other girl.
The scene reminds me of how i saw my ex with the girl inside his house.
But why am i doing this?
But i can say from the moment my eyes set on him i was very secure in my heart cos i know he is the one.
Perhaps we won't be together for long cos he haven't even settle his own problems with the girl.
Sorry darling if i have add on to your burden,i know if i didn't appear things won't turn out this way.
And i have been very emo this few days cos of his contradicting actions and words.
What he told me wasn't what he is doing.
You said give you time to leave her,but why are you picking her up almost every night from work at cine?
You said you do love me but why you seems to show her more concern rather den me?
You said you don't want her to stay in your house but why didn't you ask her to go home?
You said every night you will sleep back facing her,but i don't believe.
You are a guy who have needs too,don't tell me you have never touch her?
Can you don't be soft hearted for once?CAN YOU?
You know why you don't dare to do it cos you are used to her,
still in commitment in the relationship is cos you won't noe what to do without her around.
But ur feeling for her are fading,don't you feel is time to let go?
Yes i will give you time.
I am willing to used my 2 years life and exchange it for our happiness,
i don't mind to live 2 years lesser,
i have my limit,i don't care about status just hope that you will settle ur problems with her rather den drag on.
Either one will get hurt.
Either her or me?
Perhaps is me i don't know.
I know i am a bad girl but be in my shoes and think from my point of view.
If you love the person..
You will be selfish too.Trust me.
Don't tell me you love me but your concern towards her are more den me.
Maybe is responsibility that hold you back,i don't know.
But i never doubt you cos i know you will never lie to me.
I have always hated 3rd parties but i am one now.It is a shameful things but who have never made this mistakes before?My love life are in a big mess..
AS ALWAYS.
When was it peaceful?
GOD please spare me a long term relationship i swear that you can take away 2 years of my life to exchange for it.
People please treasure your loves one before you regret cos they isn't easy to come by.
I been thru it.
Thanks to shino for hearing me out.
Not forgetting peiying,yongan,kelvin and fiona.
I will respect your decision no matter what the outcome will be.
It hard on you this 8 days having to deal with me and her but i am trying to make you smile.
CHEERS!!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO KAI LONG AND MAX.
May all your wish come true.HUGS!
Please put urself in my shoes before you want to shoot me alright?
tata.
Give me a chance to treasure you and go thru thicks and thins with you.
Horny dog.
This backview is charming too.