♥ My Complicated Life

♥ Friday, April 27, 2007

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I am sorry for the things that i have done to make u furious
But it was out of jealously,u knew it.
I am not gaining any pity from others by blogging,it was because the one that really understand me is not there for me.
Blogging will be a good way for me to express myself.
Maybe to u, i am gaining pity from others but i am not.
You dont reply my message,i knew u will read my blog cos u have a caring heart towards me
I know u are being harsh in your words but soft in your hearts.
I hope that we can still be like the past,but i guess it is too late.
Am i right?
If if wasnt for u i wont go all the way down to your house and leave the stuffs behind for u.
Hoping that it will salvage everything, but i guess it doesnt make any effect.
You said u feel disgusted of me,it hurts me.
Do u know?
Although we have come to this present state,i sincerely hope that i am still the closest to you.
I regret saying about the 16 years thinggy.Cos it doesnt make any different anyway.
I am very worried that the stuffs will be taken by other people,all my fault cos i forgot where u stay.
Luckily u went home and take it.
I feel much more better when u said u found the stuffs.
Hope u like it,my hard earn money.
Dont ever say that "YOU WILL FIND A BETTER ONE"
Because there is only one people that know my little secret,our secret.
TAKE CARE,it seems like i am just a passing cloud.

Confuse shuhui
12.39am

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9:18 am

♥ Thursday, April 26, 2007

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I hate the feeling of being fool,
I hate people who break their promise.
Promise are not made to be broken,
If it is why do u want to made a promise at first?
I have only that one day off
Thinking of wanting to spend my day hanging out with someone yet now one word
"NOT FREE".
Dissapointed yet i am still waiting for u to sms me and say "sorry our outing is still on"
But i am thinking too much,you wont,cos you dont give the attention to me.
I cried again,cos it been so long since we 2 really go out and have fun
Waiting and waiting for this day to come but an unwanted answer from you hurts me.
Not that i love you that why i am hurt,is just that i have been treating you like my close, fren whom really will understand what i am thinking.
I hope you will change your mind,no matter what time i will still wake up and see your sms.
I saved up for this outing for this past few days cos i want it to be a successful want.
I skip my lunch to saved up,though i know i will be having gastric.
I ate bread in the morning just to saved up this sum of money to go out with you.
I am speechless,feeling empty in my heart.
I will feel tired too,i bought the couple tees cos u said u want to have 1.
Isnt that obvious enough that i wish u could appreciate,
I am happy that u are showing me that u appreciate me recently.THANKS*_*
shuhui needs a rest.She is having mid year paper one tomorrow.
GOOD NIGHTS!!!!!!!!!!!!

dissapointedshuhui
12.29AM

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8:58 am

♥ Wednesday, April 25, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

Well like finally i went back to school,everyday after school have to work..I felt tired but i still have to lead my life on.I dont really have the time to go out and enjoy like a normal typical 17 years old teenager,but one thing i am very sure that my life will be better cos i am striving extra hard to earn more money.I dont intend to get marry, being a successful independent business woman makes me feel proud next time.
Shuhui do feel sad at times,she thinks that no one really treat her good.
Always being make use of and hurt her.
Shuhui feels that no one really love her,she got no life.
No one really knows how hurtful she feels inside sometime.
But she didnt want to say it out.
Shuhui is famous for her jealousy,everyone knows that she get jealous easily.
To her she feels that almost everyone is taking her for granted.

My due date for paying up the o level exam fees is this coming friday,if my father refuse to pay,i will not get to take my o level.My name will be cancelled from the list.

Tag replies:
JIAWEI>hey nice seeing u around too,go out soon,and the promise u guys made to me when i turn 18 dun forget hor?
Xiaotaizi>hey when i got time i go link u okie?recently busy with school and work,i can get off on friday only.
Lionel>Thanks for all the encouragement u gave me,all the best wishes.
Glenn>U have been a great listener,lets work hard for double pay next week..u oso dun always skip school okie?
Weihao>u r being missed too,when i get my pay i teat u for sambal rice okie?the one at far east.
Hamster>thanks for being always there for me,dun smoke too much,i am not thinking too much,i dun even have the time to think..24 hours a day not enough for me als0.
Andy>Yea,when i get my off day i will go out with u but nt at cine.Bored.thanks.
Darren>Hey..when is our dinner?so long didnt date me out ler.sob sob.>_<
Ryan>Haha,nice seeing u that day at cine,tc.
JOANNE>yea,same interest.I have nv been the same interest as u,cos i love being single and being alone.At least i wont feel hurt.All the best for u n kevin,he is s nice guy treasure him.
Peirong>yea gal,thanks.i went back to school ler.
JUNJIE>dont worry i went back to school ler,u tc hor.
Peiying>it been a long time since we went out and talk my ass off,i got lots and lots of stuff to tell u.call me out yea.

To my dearest lao gong,sorry if sometimes i am being over sensitive.Cos i care for u,maybe u will feel angry with me sometimes but u know i didnt mean to.Just wanted to say u take care,dont take things to ur heart and make urself feel miserable,sometimes is better to let go den helding on.Cos u might not know wat the person will do next step.You have to say"I CAN DO IT,I WILL FIND A BETTER ONE"but i know it is hard to give up.Just dont think too much,anything u still can call me and talk to me.Though i might feel neglected by you sometimes but i still wish to see a msg from u.I might seems to not listen to what u want to say sometimes,but i know wat u gona tell me cos when we look at each other we know wat both of us is gona say next.I might be cold to you sometimes cos i feel that i am just a passing clouds in ur life.I am just a shuhui where else u r someone being love many people.U r very forturnate,all the best for the next realationship.I hope u change to be a better person.U noe wat i mean,dont give so high hope.Everyday when u wake up just tell urself"TODAY WILL BE A BETTER DAY".good nights.@_@

SAdandtiredshuhui
12.40am

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♥ Friday, April 20, 2007

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I love tis pics as that is the time when some of them just knew each other!!>_<

i Miss the group that we always hang out with,happily laughing and bitch together!!

My 1st day in school since March holidays,i have to mug hard now as next friday will be my mid year examination.When i step in school every single classmates shouted"Wow,holidays was a bit long huh?wat is the special occassion that will make u come to school?i thought you going ITE?"My replied was no ah,i am not like u guys that always keep on asking money from parents.I am independent,i work for my own allowance,not like u guys dont have to worried bout everyday expenses.My wish was to enter nursing course and it doesnt mean that i dont go school was because i want to have a longer holidays on my own,is cos my father dont want to pay for my fees.They was speechless,and i tell myself i have to endure for this 6 months and done with it.Ans i really love going out in twos sometimes,u should get wat i mean.MOVIE MOVIE MOVIE!!I miss the spagetti time where there is only us bitching bout our own jokes,things might not be the same cos u changed.

pAndashuhui

3.12Am

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10:47 am

♥ Sunday, April 15, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

This is not a black and white world.
To stay alive,
I say,the colours must swirl
I believe that maybe today,We will all get to appreciate the beauty of Grey.

Lao gong,i book you for the movie of WILD HOG,dont forget if not you going to get it from me hor?BenBen,fiona,kenneth and benji is going back to school today,all the best and love from SHUHUI>_<.Working at cine cathay was almost 1 month,i love the atmosphere there but too much work and too little pay.Maybe my expectation was too high but i will continue to work extra hard to earn money back to Thailand this year as my grandma is going to a far away land soon.

shuhuianastasia
1.30Am

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10:01 am

♥ Friday, April 13, 2007

My Complicate Life ♥

I have been adapted to night life scenery,soon it will never be the same.
Walking alone in the peaceful and quiet road makes me feel like giving out a loud cry,which i guess i really did without anyone around me.
I met up with my friends that i always hang out with last time,they have changed or maybe i am the odd 1 out.
They dont ask me out that often but i really still love you guys,miss the time we used to club,e2-gaming at level 9 cine,hanging out till late,eating KFC,watch midnight movies,laugh at my super lame lame jokes,taking tons and tons of pictures.
I felt that i am left out as it been ages since all of us get together,hopefully things will change to be better.
My heart is broken into shattered parts and i really can feel the pain,no one can feel how i am feeling now.
Maybe as i always said"I am just a passing clouds in their life".
I isnt that important afterall,it doesnt matter if i am there.
Shuhui not suppose to be emo,i dont like people to take me for granted,being cheated in feeling but i am alrights.
I still can take it.
Fishball noodle,strawberry milk,magnum ice cream,mac breakfast,chomp chomp,cafe cartel,night life walking will be coming to the end.
It is like a Dream,a sweet and short Dream which is going to an end.
It is time to let go,when u know there is no ending.
I am contented enough to receive so much love and care,i cant possibly ask for more,i cant be selfish.
Things will never be the same,no matter how hard u r mending back the cracks it will still be seen as the cracks is hard to be mend back nicely as before.
Shuhui friends alway come and goes,but who really understand her?She wants friends who always be there for her and not when u find ur lover den didnt contact her for months.
She didnt know if this kind of friends really treasure her as friends or not.
No matter what it is i hope that Me and You will remains like this and i take back my words.
I wont want to make u feel that i am overdoing by saying all those things,if u r happy with what u r walking now go ahead.
I am nobody to heed u advice and stop you,i am just concerning about your future,how you going to walk down the rest of ur path if u really chose this path.
Will it be a good 1 or harmful one?
Shuhui is just a samll little little peanut compare to everything else,she has no rights to stop people from thinking of that way.Find me if u still cares for me but i cant guarantee i will pick up ur call.
How many people have really appreciate shuhui?
shuhui will still continue to earn her money,till i grow old.
I am not going to marry,cos there is a promises someone gave to me.
If 50 years old no one wants me the person will marry me.

SADSHUHUI
1.58a.M

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10:28 am

♥ Friday, April 06, 2007

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I really didnt noe u mind all the things tat i have done,i miss the nite where we both are trying to give each other more space to sleep on my tiny bed.I miss the time but i alway have the feeling that u wont miss it as everyone is saying tat i am stupid and all that.I am sorry if i gave u the feeling of insecure.I really dont want it either,I DONT DENY THAT I STILL CARE FOR U.Please take good care of urself,i am still the shuhui but i am not so soft hearted as before.No one can feel how she is feeling now.yOU ALWAYS said u wont get jealous,but i noe u r.

Sadshuhui
8.16PM

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5:01 am

♥ Sunday, April 01, 2007

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It been a long time since i last blog,now i wont feel lonely at night cos i have been going to serangoon to carry out my night walk activities with ben ben.We went to many playgrounds and fitness corner,i feel so cool la.Sometimes i just cant tell anyone of what i am feeling and thinking as i am afraid of gossiping,i will just keep mum and i will keep it in my heart.I really hope someone could listen to what i am feeling now,i am not happy.I am very sad but no one could tell cos i am a good actor,i want everyone to be happy,i am utterly dissapointed with someone cos he promise me something but he broke the promise.I shouldnt name who is the person cos you didnt know i know about the stuff,when i heard about it i am pretty shock and didnt know you will do it.You are new and not farmiliar with stuffs that is happening,i hope that u will not do something that everyone think u shouldnt have done though u have did it once.I will just pretend that i didnt know about it cos i dont want to confront you.I miss hanging out with my long lost frens,ask miie out soon okie?My bear group and jie jie gary.Andy lim please be strong and hang in there,just a few months more alrights?I know you care for miie alot,i appreciate it.THANKS!!I am very stress at my work place as the people there sux man,they loves to smoke and ask miie to do all the sai kang stuff,but no matter wat i have to tolerate for the sake of my money.MONEY MAKES THE WOLD GOES ROUND!why people wants to be high profile?I dont think it is a good thing lo,One mistake u made the whole world will know.I just want a happy lifestlye and enjoy.Night cyling was fun,supper and breakfast!

Confuse
shuhui8.57A.M.

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